Supermarket II
Upcycled Adidas sweatshirt, hand embroidery
This piece emerged after years of unsteady jobs and amidst the overwhelming questions that arose during my studies at the Ma art program. The constant mental tug-of-war between grounding myself here and the thought of abandoning everything to return to Kalmykia left me paralyzed. I knew that my existence was incompatible with the regime back home, so I kept pushing forward.
In my search for stability, I took on a part-time role as a teacher assistant at a kindergarten.
Keeping the same choreography of transitions: work - shop - home.
This was my first real encounter with Germany's care system, its promises of integration, and the reality that was far from what had been promised.
It was during this time that I experienced my first burnouts.
Romantic Lidl Collection II, my second audio mix, was made around this period and accompanies the piece. It reflects the emotional undercurrent of these struggles, reworking the themes of monotony, isolation, and the relentless pushthrough needed to keep going.
Supermarket II
Upcycled Adidas sweatshirt, hand embroidery
This piece emerged after years of unsteady jobs and amidst the overwhelming questions that arose during my studies at the Ma art program. The constant mental tug-of-war between grounding myself here and the thought of abandoning everything to return to Kalmykia left me paralyzed. I knew that my existence was incompatible with the regime back home, so I kept pushing forward.
In my search for stability, I took on a part-time role as a teacher assistant at a kindergarten.
Keeping the same choreography of transitions: work - shop - home.
This was my first real encounter with Germany's care system, its promises of integration, and the reality that was far from what had been promised.
It was during this time that I experienced my first burnouts.
Romantic Lidl Collection II, my second audio mix, was made around this period and accompanies the piece. It reflects the emotional undercurrent of these struggles, reworking the themes of monotony, isolation, and the relentless pushthrough needed to keep going.